Do you every have those moments when you're driving, you look up, and wonder how you've gotten there? You were not living in the moment. You were in the past or future, but the presents "passed" you by. Those are moments you will never get back. So be it. Don't regret it now. It's done. Next time you drive, try to notice everything around you, notice it as if you were walking past it (slow motion). The picture on this website is an actual picture I took on the way to the next town one morning, somewhere between 5 and 6 am. I was taking my children to school one morning and saw this beautiful sunrise. We had to stop to take a picture... it didn't matter if we were late. We would never see this again unless we were to stop and photograph it.
Don't let life pass you by. Stop, see the trees blowing in the wind. Stop and pick wildflowers for no reason. Enjoy yourself.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
The Secret to Happiness
I used to be a miserable person. Everyone who saw me could tell at first glance that I was miserable. Not anymore. I do occasionally will still have down moments, but they don't last long because now I am more aware and can give myself an attitude adjustment. To tell you how I've manage to do this I must first tell you a little background.
When I was a kid, I was nice, and happy. Then the world attacked me. Some people misunderstood me being nice for being weak. And I guess I sort of was. Some people took advantage of me in different forms. We all know that there are people out there that feel that because they are miserable they can't help but to try to destroy something or someone that is good or happy because it is a reminder of how miserable they are. So over the years I fell victim to the evils of the world.
Luckily I was also brought up in a Christian home so even though I forgot about God he did not forget about me (even though it felt like it.)
My ex-husband and I used to drink and do drugs A LOT. Because of my upbringing, I had a guilty conscience. I'm a mother and mothers aren't supposed to be this way. We were always broke, barely had enough food, always moving because we couldn't pay rent. Even slept in the car (with my kids) more times than I would like to think. I even became suicidal.
One night, after a knock down drag out with my ex-husband I remembered God and started praying. I spend night after night crying and praying myself to sleep for God to fix my situation. I finally asked him "God, do what you have to do." "If it means loosing everything just do what you have to do." Well he did.
Eventually I left my ex. When I left him I had no more desire to do drugs. I surrounded myself only by people with whom I felt safe and happy (my family). Eventually I became mentally strong again. I read every self-help book I could get my hands on.
I met my new husband who taught me to trust again. It took a lot of patience on his part, but it happened.
I came across this book by Eckhart Tolle "A New Earth" (actually I listened to it on cd), then read one called "The Shack". Those books sparked an interest The Bible. The combination of those books has made a world of difference in how I see life now.
The people I surrounded myself with made most of the difference. I started seeing beauty in everything and everyone. I fell in love with my children again, my husband again. I was able to go outside on a stormy day and appreciate the beauty of the storm. When it rains it's almost as if I can feel the plants in their appreciation of their drink. When the wind blows I swear it feels as if God is kissing me. I became best friends with my Mother, the one who has loved me no matter what I said or how I acted. I've come to appreciate and love my Daddy more. My brothers are some of the wisest men I know. All of them, my best friends. I've learned to love again, all over. Sometimes I feel like it oozes out of me. And it all started with a simple prayer from a dope-head in a dire need of help.
My husband often tells me as he cups his hands around my face "You're so pretty." My response is "It's because I'm in Love."
Yes, I'm in love with him, but I'm also, now, in love with life. I'm in love with what it's going to show me next. Good or bad, there's some thing there meant just for me.
Nothing is good or bad anymore, it is just what is supposed to happen in order for me to get from one level of understanding to another.
I've discovered that if your completely honest, and do what your suppose to do, be kind to people, treat people like you would like them to treat you, all of it comes back to you. If you put out negative emotions, you'll get negative emotions back. Negativity is like a disease. But it can be cured.
I still run into evil on a daily basis, but now I see it more clearly so I can deal with it more effectively than I use too. Sometimes I falter, but not for long. After all Jesus was the only perfect human.
I understand that not everyone believes in Jesus, and that's okay, whether you're Buddhist, Jewish, Mormon, what have you. It doesn't matter, you know as well as I do something bigger than you is out there. We know from history that Jesus did exist. What you believe in is between you and God. But I will tell you one thing about Jesus, he sure set a good example.
I love you all...
When I was a kid, I was nice, and happy. Then the world attacked me. Some people misunderstood me being nice for being weak. And I guess I sort of was. Some people took advantage of me in different forms. We all know that there are people out there that feel that because they are miserable they can't help but to try to destroy something or someone that is good or happy because it is a reminder of how miserable they are. So over the years I fell victim to the evils of the world.
Luckily I was also brought up in a Christian home so even though I forgot about God he did not forget about me (even though it felt like it.)
My ex-husband and I used to drink and do drugs A LOT. Because of my upbringing, I had a guilty conscience. I'm a mother and mothers aren't supposed to be this way. We were always broke, barely had enough food, always moving because we couldn't pay rent. Even slept in the car (with my kids) more times than I would like to think. I even became suicidal.
One night, after a knock down drag out with my ex-husband I remembered God and started praying. I spend night after night crying and praying myself to sleep for God to fix my situation. I finally asked him "God, do what you have to do." "If it means loosing everything just do what you have to do." Well he did.
Eventually I left my ex. When I left him I had no more desire to do drugs. I surrounded myself only by people with whom I felt safe and happy (my family). Eventually I became mentally strong again. I read every self-help book I could get my hands on.
I met my new husband who taught me to trust again. It took a lot of patience on his part, but it happened.
I came across this book by Eckhart Tolle "A New Earth" (actually I listened to it on cd), then read one called "The Shack". Those books sparked an interest The Bible. The combination of those books has made a world of difference in how I see life now.
The people I surrounded myself with made most of the difference. I started seeing beauty in everything and everyone. I fell in love with my children again, my husband again. I was able to go outside on a stormy day and appreciate the beauty of the storm. When it rains it's almost as if I can feel the plants in their appreciation of their drink. When the wind blows I swear it feels as if God is kissing me. I became best friends with my Mother, the one who has loved me no matter what I said or how I acted. I've come to appreciate and love my Daddy more. My brothers are some of the wisest men I know. All of them, my best friends. I've learned to love again, all over. Sometimes I feel like it oozes out of me. And it all started with a simple prayer from a dope-head in a dire need of help.
My husband often tells me as he cups his hands around my face "You're so pretty." My response is "It's because I'm in Love."
Yes, I'm in love with him, but I'm also, now, in love with life. I'm in love with what it's going to show me next. Good or bad, there's some thing there meant just for me.
Nothing is good or bad anymore, it is just what is supposed to happen in order for me to get from one level of understanding to another.
I've discovered that if your completely honest, and do what your suppose to do, be kind to people, treat people like you would like them to treat you, all of it comes back to you. If you put out negative emotions, you'll get negative emotions back. Negativity is like a disease. But it can be cured.
I still run into evil on a daily basis, but now I see it more clearly so I can deal with it more effectively than I use too. Sometimes I falter, but not for long. After all Jesus was the only perfect human.
I understand that not everyone believes in Jesus, and that's okay, whether you're Buddhist, Jewish, Mormon, what have you. It doesn't matter, you know as well as I do something bigger than you is out there. We know from history that Jesus did exist. What you believe in is between you and God. But I will tell you one thing about Jesus, he sure set a good example.
I love you all...
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